Archive for March 2009

How Can I Be So Jobless?

March 13, 2009

Minsan kelangan nating bumitaw kung sa tingin natin eh yun ang mas makakabuti para sa sarili natin. Kelangan nating gumawa ng isang desisyon kahit gano kahirap.

Matagal rin akong nagcontemplate at nag-antay ng signs bago ako nag-decide na magresign sa opis. Plano ko na talagang magresign sa katapusan ng February pero napaaga lang ng konti ang resignation ko. Nag-antay lang ako ng timing.

Maraming nangyari sa opis nitong mga nakaraang araw. May mga nagresign. May mga sinabon. May productivity at burn out issues. Minabuti kong magresign na din hindi dahil blocked ang WP sa opis halos dalawang buwan na at dahil uso ang pagri-resign sa opis ngayon.lols. Nagresign ako dahil alam kong yun ang mas mabuti at kelangan ko na talagang hanapin ang sarili ko. Parang nawawala ako eh no? Nawawala sa sarili kong pagi-isip. lols.

I’m not a good writer. Di ko na kelangang sabihan yan dahil obvious na masyado eh. I’ve lost my focus lately. Di na ko makapagsulat nang maayos at di ko na gustong dayain ang sarili ko na magiging productive pa ko pag tinuloy ko pa ang trabahong to. Di lang naman ako ang nakaramdam ng burn out sa opis dahil marami nang naunang nagresign. Mas magagaling pa nga ang mga yun at mas malalaki ang sahod kesa sa kin. Pero isa lang ang nakapagpatumba sa kanila – burn out syndrome. lols.   

Tumagal din ako ng lagpas isang taon sa company namin. Mas nagtagal ako dito kesa sa dati kong trabaho bilang call center agent. Finally, narasan ko na ang magresign. lols. Nung una kasi nag-AWOL lang ako. haha. Kahit gano kasi ka-persuasive yung Ops Manager namin nun eh di nya ako nakumbinsi na magstay at magtake ng halos isandaang tawag gabi-gabi at pagmumurahin ng mga engot na callers. Humaba naman nang konti ang buhok ko sa kili-kili dahil kinausap talaga ako nun ng Ops Manager dahil nga raw malaki ang topak potential ko na maging magaling na call boy center center agent. But I gave up. Alam ko kung kelan ako bibitaw…gaya ngayon.        

Last day ko na sa office nung Lunes. Mula nung Martes rest day ko na naman araw-araw. Wala na naman akong ginagawa sa boarding house kundi tumunganga at humilata maghapon habang inaantay na marelease ang final paycheck ko sa March 25. Kung nakamamatay ang boredom matagal na akong natsugi. lols. Two weeks pa ang aantayin ko bago ako makauwi sa min at makapaghanap ng bagong trabaho. 

Mabigat ang desisyong ginawa ko dahil mahirap raw maghanap ng raket ngayon. Maraming employees ang na-lay off, maraming sweldo ang nabawasan, at maraming kompanya ang nag-shut down dahil sa bwisit na global crisis. Di ko alam kung san ako pupulutin nito. Wag naman sana sa kangkungan.

Wala pa akong definite plans. Hanggang ngayon hilo pa rin ako kung san ako pupunta. Basta alam ko aalis muna ako ng Cebu. Tama na muna siguro ang dalawang taong pamamalagi ko dito. Naramdaman ko na ang lungkot. Wala na nga akong makausap pagkalabas ko sa opis. Parang kulungan ko na rin ang boarding house. Di ko dapat ikulong ang sarili ko sa isang maliit na kwarto dahil napakalaki ng mundo sa labas. Maraming opportunidad ang naga-abang at sana makahanap agad ako ng bagong trabaho.

Sana di ako nagkamali sa mga desisyon na ginawa ko at gagawin ko pa lang. Panibagong mga hamon na naman ang haharapin ko at wala akong ideya kung ano ang naghihintay sa kin pagkatapos nito. Maraming mga bagay ang susubok sa katatagan at pang-unawa ko. Kung san man ako dalhin ng mga paa ko, sana makaya ko ang mga bagay na dapat kong harapin. Alam kong hindi magiging madali para sa kin yun pero nakahanda ako. Bring it on!

Advertisements

Anthology

March 6, 2009

anthology1I grew up listening to the music of Eraserheads. I’ve said that time and time again. Heck, I just can’t stop talking about them. Eheads’ music brings a certain sort of nostalgia and reminds me of my early childhood days. Eheads influenced me one way or another and they made me dream of becoming an artist myself. But apparently that dream would forever be a dream because I still don’t know how to play guitar and I don’t have my own band.lols.

Eraserheads’ first album UltraElectroMagneticPop! was released in July 1993. I was only eight years old that time. I remember myself singing Eheads’ songs while sitting on our makeshift duyan. lols. Eheads’ songs were the songs I’ve memorized next to the nursery rhymes taught in grade school.

LIGAYA
Ligaya was their first single. The song’s theme is for grown ups but young listeners enjoyed it as well. Perhaps, it’s because the song talks about the experiences of youngsters who are starting to make pa-cute.lols. Who would forget the line: “Tatlong oras na akong nagpapacute sa’yo, ‘di mo man lang napapansin ang bagong t-shirt ko?” The first single indeed brought ligaya to their fans.

ALAPAAP
As I was growing up Eheads had more hits and their songs dominated the local alternative music. Besides, their first album became six times platinum. Talking about hits, Alapaap is one of Eheads unforgettable songs. This even became controversial. I’d rather not talk about it here. On second thought, I’ll write it here in case you guys forgot what happened. hehe. A senator, Sotto if I’m not mistaken, wanted to ban the song because it promotes drug use according to him. Eheads expressed their side and defended that the song is instead an ode to freedom. This may be explained by the lyrics: Ang daming bawal sa mundo, sinasakal nila tayo. For me, Eheads themselves give fans the natural high.

MAGASIN
It wasn’t really expected that Eheads would be in Magasins and take the country’s music industry by storm. That is because they were rejected by some record labels before they got the chance to record their first album. Early 90’s was also dominated by pop bands. They didn’t belong to this category so starting up was not as easy as a pie for them. Eheads were even considered “not so pop” and “Pop U” became their response to those who didn’t like their music. One thing I liked about Eheads is that they break the conventions in OPM and they wrote original songs which became so-called anthems. In 1996, the first issue of the Ereaserheads official magazine Pillbox was released.

PARA SA MASA
I would say Eheads’ music is for the masa. Their songs are very catchy and their musical style is genuine. This, I think, endeared their music to the public and all of their songs captivated the hearts of many Pinoys. Para Sa Masa is Eheads’ tribute to their fans who accepted and appreciated their music. This song expresses how grateful they are to their fans. “Naaalala nyo pa ba? Binigyan namin kayo ng ligaya” states how they wanted to entertain us through the music that they play.

HARD TO BELIEVE
Eheads shocked their fans when Ely announced that he will be playing his last gig in March 2002. I really didn’t expect that Ely would quit that early since they just released the album Carbon Stereoxide in 2001. Hard To Believe is one of Eheads’ sad songs and I could really describe it as emo. And that could perfectly express the way their fans felt when Ely left the band. Many Pinoys shed tears and became emotional when Eheads disbanded. I was also saddened to hear the news. That was indeed Hard To Believe.

KAILAN

Since the band’s last gig, people have been asking kailan? People were clamoring for a reunion concert and that finally happened last August 3o, 2oo8 when Eheads found themselves on the same stage again. That Kailan was finally given an answer but unfortunately the concert had to be cut short because of Ely’s condition. Fans can’t really get enough of Eheads so they still asked for another concert. Eheads love their fans so they we will give us what we want. I’m sure fans are excited to watch the part 2 of the reunion concert called The Final Set tonight.

ANG HULING EL BIMBO

This might the last time that Ely Buendia, Buddy Zabala, Marcus Adoro, and Raymund Marasigan would perform together. I heard Ely even confirmed that this would be their last concert. As much as we would like to see them perform together, they all have their offshoot bands; Ely is with Pupil, Raymund is with Sandwich, Buddy is with The Dawn, and Marcus is with Markus Highway. They all moved on and Eheads days are over. They are down to their last concert.

As of this writing, Eheads fans are already in the concert venue jamming with the Eheads. Actually, my officemate Marche just texted me saying “Grabe! hayop talaga ang Eheads!” Geez, I want to freak out. I also didn’t make it to their first reunion concert. I’m still unfortunate this time. I wanted to watch the concert as my birthday gift for myself. But swerte is always not on my side.

I may not be able to watch another Eraserheads Reunion Concert but I would remain their fan. I’m listening to Anthology while I’m writing this entry. That makes me feel worse.lols. I won’t forget how they influenced me and how they made an essential contribution to the local alternative music. Eheads is one of the best things to happen in the entire Pinoy music history. Rak on!

Happy Beerday To Me!

March 3, 2009

Whooah! I’m finally back after a week-long hiatus. First of all, I would like to thank those who sent their condolences through text message and comments. I really appreciate it. Thanks to those who prayed for the eternal repose of my lola’s soul. I’m sure our prayers are with her as she rose in eternity. Goodbye, Nay…

Things have been pretty heavy and tough lately. But there’s a cliche, life must go on. I know my lola is happy wherever she is. But what was sad is that it was my birthday the day after her interment. I could have spent it with her if she didn’t pass away. Sad, really. I need to loosen up a bit in this post.

I spent my birthday with my family, relatives, and some of my friends. It was just a small gathering. I even left for Cebu at 5PM and had to leave my guests behind. I spent half of the day traveling. Not a good thing.   

Thanks to my blog friends who sent their pic greetings. Big thanks, guys! I can see here a great amount of imagination and creativity. hehe. It’s my first time to do this and I really didn’t expect others to send in their pic greetings. You surprised me! hehe.

From Kuya Dong of http://dongism.blogspot.com

kuya-dongs-greetings

From Gasdude of http://grilledbeef.blogspot.com

Parekoy,
 ‘Eto na picture greeting ko para sa ‘yo. Ampucha napuyat ako dahil dito ah. *LOLz*
 Heberdei! Hintayin ko dito ang painom mo. = P
 Cheers,
 The Gasoline Dude

gasdudes-greetings

From Teresa of http://emoterangpromdi.idlip.net and Rio of http://riotooth.blogspot.com

Teresa: eto na lang yung gmitin mo sakin,hehe! pinaulet ni ate rio eh, tas baka gawa din dw sya ulet..karerin ba? lols!happy birthday…

teresa-and-rios-greetings2

From Kuya Oman of http://lawstude.blogspot.com

kuya-omans-greetings
          From Basti of http://familyhealthandhome.com

bastis-greetings

Wheew! I’m sorry if the posting of the pics is a bit delayed. Thanks, thanks! It’s such a nice experience to spend my birthday with you, my blog friends! ‘Til my next birthday. Hope you guys are still around.

To those want to send more pic greetings, I could still post them here. It’s still my birthmonth, anyway. hehe.

And speaking of birthdays, Greet ko na rin bestfriends ko sa Cavite. Hapi Beerday Pareng Harry (Feb. 27) at Pareng Macoy (March 11). Sayang kasi di natin napagsabay-sabay celebration ng birthdays natin kasi medyo nasa malayong lupalop ako. lols. Next year na lang, pramis! hehe.

bday-celebrants

What’s with the pose? Ewan ko. Siguro kasi si Harry yung 1st na nag-birthday sa min, 2nd ako at 3rd si Macoy. lols.