Insomniac

Darkness covered the four corners of my room. There was silence all over it. And there were no people outside. No uninteresting “talks”. No unwanted noise. The narrow patio outside was totally deserted. Everyone was asleep…except me.

Lying on my bed, I opened my heavy eyes. These eyes have been wanting to close but my mind seemed so restless. I felt like I was preoccupied with many things but I wasn’t thinking of anything at all.

I let my eyes behold the emptiness of my room. My eyes caught something bright, a green bulb that I use as the source of light when I sleep. But now, it’s no use. I felt like I would be awake whole night.

The squeaking sound of lizards was the only thing that breaks the silence. I was gazing at them as they play freely on the ceiling.

This small green bulb lightens up the room. I can see things clearer now. But all of them are lifeless. Not even the air that the electric fan blows can bring them to life. I’m alone. But I’m used to it.

I’ve been tossing and turning on my bed for quite some time. I spent so much time in embracing my pillow and wishing that I would finally snore after few minutes. I wanted to close my eyes and fall asleep. But the problem is that I can’t. I really can’t. It seems that my call center days are all coming back. I thought that the polyphasic “sleeps” that I had before would come once again.

Then, I felt that something was crawling on my skin. Damn! It was one filthy cockroach. WTF!  I hate it. I hate to see cockroaches fly everywhere and sleep beside me. I hate it even more to see rats eat the little food that I have. I would get rid of these pests soon!  

I got up from the bed and sat on a wooden chair. It felt good to cover my face with the palms of my hands. However, my eyes hurt every time my eyelids touch them. It felt like the smallest grains of sand were scattered in my eyes. If only I could ask my eyes and mind to cooperate, I would have done it earlier.

I grabbed my cellphone roughly to check the time. I was a bit horrified to see that it was already past twelve.

I lied down once again and finally lapsed into unconsciousness…

 

 

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17 Comments on “Insomniac”

  1. popoy Says:

    haaaayy, gusto kong umiyak.. parang hindi ko magagawang maging insomiac ngayon lex. buti n lang dahil baka kung ano pa ang tumakbo sa utak ko…

    buti na lang at lagi akong pagod sa trabho at nakaktulog ako agad..

    minsan naisip ko… sana wag na lang akong magising…

  2. zeemerblock Says:

    i totally understand what you feel. I for one am an insomniac and it really sucks. However, mine is different. I can sleep easily but I can’t keep myself asleep. I usually sleep around 9:30 pm and then I wake up around 12am. It’s frustrating. Nakakatulog akouli around 3:30 am na…

  3. geisha Says:

    am glad i could easily fall to sleep even when the situation does not requires it!

    kahit nasa cr pwede akong matulog. sa bus, sa jeep at kahit nakatayo!

    that is if sleepy na talaga ako! a good milk and a bath will ease your sleepless nights! trust me 🙂

  4. wei vines Says:

    hehehe..tinawag ko nga dati prenster ko na WEInsomniac…badtrip talaga! lalo na pag gusto mo matulog! maski ipis napapansin!

    beero @wei vines: naks! may prenster ka pala ha! ma-search nga.LOL. oo nga eh. kahit ano na lang napapansin mopag di ka makatulog. pati nga “malambing” na ingay sa kabilang bahay eh napansin ko.haha 👿

  5. madbong Says:

    insomnia? kulang lang sa inom hehe.

    beero @madbong: baka nga kulang lang sa inom to. cge, inom ako mamaya. waahh. kasalanan mo to parekoy! ni-remind mo ko. hehe 😆

  6. leylander Says:

    im working on an item about sleep apnea and narcolepsy….

    freaky

    beero @leylander: wow! medyo heavy na topic na yan! “trees” lang kasi topic ko kanina. hehe. share mo naman sa kin kung ano nadiskubre mo. baka makatulong sa maaga kong paglala pag-galing!

  7. beero Says:

    beero @popoy: nakow! buti ka pa. busy din naman ako minsan sa work pero ganun pa rin. latena talaga ako nakakatulog.

    wag kang magsalita ng ganyan parang kinakabagan este kinakabahan ako sayo eh. you should always have a reason to wake up despite some problems or depressions that you have.

  8. beero Says:

    beero @zeemerblock:

    medyo strange nga din yung tulog. yun yung tinatawag na polyphasic na tulog, the sleeping phase common to babies. ako once makatulog diretso na hanggang umaga.

  9. beero Says:

    beero @geisha: haha 😆 ang lupet mo naman! ingat ka lang kasi di mo mamalayan na sa bangketa ka na pala nakatulog.hehe.

  10. xienahgirl Says:

    ang emo ni popoy ano?
    hahaha

    hanuber.
    yung mga ipis na yan
    sauce

    beero @xienahgirl: yup. ewan ko ba dyan kay popoy. parang na-possess ng kaluluwa ng pinaka-emong multo. LOL. haha 😆 ganun ka-at home ang mga ipis sa min. tumatabi talaga sa kin. hehe

  11. rhapsody Says:

    ipis!!! ipis!!! takbo!!! hehheh

    beero @rhapsody: haha 😆 para namang kasing-laki ni godzilla yung ipis. tolerable pa naman sya. hehe.

  12. Geisha Says:

    sana naman nakakatulog ka na!
    pag hindi pa rin sa akin ka kumunsulta bka psychological disorder na yan 🙂 hehehe

    beero @geisha: nakakatulog naman ako kaya nga lang medyo late na. hayaan mo minsan magpapakonsulta ako sayo para lalo akong lumala. hehe.

  13. kuri Says:

    salamat din sa pagbisita…na-add na kita pare!

  14. FerBert Says:

    alam mo bang alas 8 na ako ng umaga natutulog. at nagigising ako 12 na ng tanghali. Hirap akong matulog. Walang epekto sakin ang pagligo bago pumunta sa kama saka pag inom ng gatas. Ayoko naman uminom ng sleeping pills kase baka di na ko magising.. Mabuti na tong gising ako magdamag kesa hindi na ko magising sa mahimbing kong pagtulog..

  15. paolo Says:

    nice post. i hate roaches too… =)

  16. Geisha Says:

    hahahahahha 😀

  17. y Says:

    hindi kaya may mga bagay na bumabagabag sa’yo? or maybe stressed out sa work? pwede rin kasing side effect ng stress ang sleep disorder. may mga taong kahit pagod na pagod eh hirap pa matulog kasi hindi relaxed yung mind and other bodily functions nila. try to think of optimistic and relaxing thoughts before you go to sleep, also, stabilize your breathing pattern. kapag maganda ang oxygenation sa katawan natin, mas improved ang circulation thereby easing muscle tension.


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