Archive for April 2008

Insomniac

April 23, 2008

Darkness covered the four corners of my room. There was silence all over it. And there were no people outside. No uninteresting “talks”. No unwanted noise. The narrow patio outside was totally deserted. Everyone was asleep…except me.

Lying on my bed, I opened my heavy eyes. These eyes have been wanting to close but my mind seemed so restless. I felt like I was preoccupied with many things but I wasn’t thinking of anything at all.

I let my eyes behold the emptiness of my room. My eyes caught something bright, a green bulb that I use as the source of light when I sleep. But now, it’s no use. I felt like I would be awake whole night.

The squeaking sound of lizards was the only thing that breaks the silence. I was gazing at them as they play freely on the ceiling.

This small green bulb lightens up the room. I can see things clearer now. But all of them are lifeless. Not even the air that the electric fan blows can bring them to life. I’m alone. But I’m used to it.

I’ve been tossing and turning on my bed for quite some time. I spent so much time in embracing my pillow and wishing that I would finally snore after few minutes. I wanted to close my eyes and fall asleep. But the problem is that I can’t. I really can’t. It seems that my call center days are all coming back. I thought that the polyphasic “sleeps” that I had before would come once again.

Then, I felt that something was crawling on my skin. Damn! It was one filthy cockroach. WTF!  I hate it. I hate to see cockroaches fly everywhere and sleep beside me. I hate it even more to see rats eat the little food that I have. I would get rid of these pests soon!  

I got up from the bed and sat on a wooden chair. It felt good to cover my face with the palms of my hands. However, my eyes hurt every time my eyelids touch them. It felt like the smallest grains of sand were scattered in my eyes. If only I could ask my eyes and mind to cooperate, I would have done it earlier.

I grabbed my cellphone roughly to check the time. I was a bit horrified to see that it was already past twelve.

I lied down once again and finally lapsed into unconsciousness…

 

 

Castaway

April 17, 2008

Medyo inaantok na ako ngayon kasi di ako nakatulog ng maayos last night. Sa pagkakatanda ko eh, alas dose na ko tuluyang nakatulog. Kahit na inaantok na ko pagkalabas sa opis, naisipan kong dumaan muna sa internet cafe para i-check ang Friendster, WP, at imeem accounts ko.Nakagawian ko na tong pampalipas-oras. 

Mas OK na siguro to kesa dumiretso ako sa boarding house. Wala din naman akong dadatnan dun kundi ang mga ipis at dagang nakikitira sa kin. Ayoko na ring maabutan pa ang news programs dahil nagsasawa na ko sa mga balita ngayon. Alam kong pati kayo eh nagsasawa na rin sa sensationalisized news sa TV – panic buying dahil sa rice shortage (daw), pagtaas ng mga bilihin, mga rally sa Maynila, at kung anek-anek pa. 

Inisip ko, ano kaya magandang panoorin sa Youtube? Di na ko nag-isip nang matagal. SURVIVOR: Cook Islands aga ang pumasok sa isip ko. Adik na adik ako show na to. Para sa kin, ito ang pinaka-astig na season ng Survivor. Kasi ito lang din ang season na napanood at sinubaybayan ko hanggang ngayon. haha.

Dalawang oras akong nakaupo sa harap ng TV pag Sabado para lang mapanood ang encore run sa Studio 23. Sa lahat ng reality shows eh ito ang pinakagusto ko. Ang sayang panoorin ng mga contestants na halos magbugbugan para manalo sa challenges. hehe.

Pero higit pa dyan, gusto ko ang Survivor kasi dito nasusubok ang katatagan at kakayahan ng isang taong harapin ang malulupit na hamon ng buhay. ahehe. Dito mo rin mararanasan ang mabuhay ng simple at ipakita ang yong totoong karakter.

Episode 9 na ang pinalabas nung Sabado. Limang episodes na lang eh may Sole Survivor na. Sa dalawang natitirang tribes, Aitu at Raro, gusto ko ang Aitu. Sila Ozzy, Yul, Sundra, at Becky kasi ang underdogs. Nakaka-relate ako sa kanila kasi underdog din ako. hehe. Kahit na iniwan sila ng dalawa nilang ka-tribe, pinatunayan nila na kaya pa rin nilang manalo. Kahit outnumbered sila, nanalo sila sa apat na sunod-sunod na challenges. Kaya di na ko nagtaka nang mabasa ko ngayon na sila ang naging Final 4 at si Yul ang naging Sole Survivor.

Adik nga siguro ako sa show na to kasi gusto ko na ring  maging castaway. Gusto kong maranasang makapaglaro para sa immunity at reward challenge. LOL. At mas gusto kong subukan kung hanggang san ang itatagal ko. Dahil na rin siguro to sa pinagdadaanan ko ngayon. Para na rin akong castaway dahil malayo ako sa pamilya ko at pinipilit kong mamuhay na malayo sa kanila. (Tama na ang drama Beero! Inom ka na lang ng beer para di ka na malungkot)hehe.

8:40 PM na pero di pa ko nakakain at P30 na kelangan kong bayaran dito. Pano ba yan? The tribe has spoken. I have to go! LOL.

 

 

Plagiarist Stikes Out!

April 17, 2008

“You’re nothing but a second rate trying hard copycat.”

Check this link Plagiarist to find out what I’m talking about.

I checked my Yahoo WAP Messenger first thing in the morning. There were offline messages from my friend Jeckass. He asked me if this URL http://paust.blogspot.com belongs to me. Damn! I don’t have a Blogspot account. How could that happen? He told me that someone has been copying some of my posts. I was a bit shocked with this revelation . I didn’t know that a plagiarist exists even in the blogospehere.

Out of curiosity, I checked his blog. Jeck was right. I was surprised to see two of my previous posts broadly published on his site. What the hell do you think you’re doing? My previous entries “Boredom+Antok=Senti” and “Petiks” have been copied by this “unfamiliar” plagiarist.  But I learned that he is “famous” in the blogosphere because he was nominated for Candy Mag’s Teen Blog Awards whatsoever. Wow! A plagiarist gets nominated, huh!

He was like an intruder who entered my house, grabbed something that I own, and used it for his own damn sake. I really could not fathom why you did this. Do you idolize me or something? I’m not flattered, though. Or you just don’t have something to write. If that’s the case, you should have opted to catch some Zs and killed yourself of boredom.

This fuckin’ creature copy-pasted those posts, changed some details, and made them his own. I’m not a good writer. I don’t need to say that because my posts are idiotic. It’s good to know that some people read my posts and leave comments. But seeing a blogger copy what I wrote is totally ridiculous.

I don’t know how to react to it. My officemates tell me that “imitation is the best form of flattery”. Should I be happy to hear it from them? No. For me, what happened is a complete and obvious plagiarism.

This is gonna be my message: If you (http://paust.blogspot.com) don’t know what plagiarism is, I’ll be gald to define it for you. You may also check a dictionary if you have one. My Journalism professor said that plagiarism is the paractice of copying someone’s work and idea and assuming that you wrote it. Makes sense?

Now, I’m challenging you to copy and publish this on your site. That way, your friends and readers would know who your source is. Shame on you!

I demand you to delete those copied posts. Or better yet, you can delete your Blogspot account and get yourself out of the blogging community. I wonder where you got your other posts. Expess your own thoughts you moron! Don’t depend on other bloggers’ posts and stand in your own ass!I’m pretty sure that there are other unaware “victims” of your act. There is no room for plagiarists here. You’re pathetic.

This should not happen again. Above all, this should not happen to us “original” bloggers.

 

 

 

Petiks

April 14, 2008

I just got out from the office. I’m exhausted. My eyes are tired of staring at the computer screen whole day. And yet I feel like I did nothing. I was trying to be busy but I can’t.

Parang pumetiks lang ako maghapon. Di ko naman kasi kayang magbusy-busyhan. Pakshit! Ang OA sigurong magpakaseryoso sa trabaho. Kahit sino naman siguro eh pumepetiks. May oras na kelangan mong  mag-unwind at huminga nang malalim. haha.

Ano nga ba nagawa ko maghapon? Ahhhmmm…may nasulat naman akong items. Di ko naman pinapabayaan ang trabaho ko. Naks! Pero di nagtagal eh medyo natuyo na utak ko. Epekto na siguro to ng pagsinghot ko ng rugby kagabi. LOL. Wala nang pumasok sa utak ko. Kahit pinaka-simpleng ideya eh pinagkait sa kin ng natitira kong brain cells.

Para makapag-relaks, naki-jam lang muna ulit ako sa mga peyborit kong kanta. Maghapong nakasaksak ang headset sa mga tenga ko. Ilang beses ko ring na-play ang Sexy Love at Go On Girl ni Ne-Yo.haha. 

I checked my Yahoo WAP Messenger. May message sina Pareng Popoy at Pareng Jeckass. Ang dami naming pumetiks kanina. LOL.

Tenks sa compliment Pareng Jeckass. Nakakataba ng pusong makatanggap ng isang compliment mula sa isang magaling na blogger katulad mo. hehe. Sana rin eh nakatulong ang mga payo ko sayo. Basta tandaan mo ang sinabi ko kanina: “I understand, dude. She has no right to intrude! Kumusta naman ang rhyme? hahaha 😆

Fan din ng RnB ang mokong na si Popoy kaya madalas naming topic ang bagong RnB songs. Tinanong nya agad ako kung narinig ko na ang kantang “FORGET ABOUT ME” by Little Bit. Medyo OK naman ang mga paborito nya kaya sinearch ko agad ang kanta. Panay nga ang update kung napakinggan ko na ang kanta. Adik! Pero salamat na rin kasi dinamayan mo ko sa pagpetiks. lols! OK nga ang kanta. Pasalamat ka Popoy. Kung di ko nagustuhan, kelangan mong ipackage sa kin ang chiching na may STD at magpadala ng Generoso Brandy. Bagong sweldo ka pa naman. LOL.

At dahil nga tuyo utak ko ngayon, dito nagtatapos ang post na to…

 

 

 

 

 

Message to Friends

April 8, 2008

Have you ever thanked your friends for coming into your life?  Did you ever thank them for their comforting words whenever you have problems?

We seldom realize the importance of our friends. We don’t usually value their presence and we seldom express that we’re grateful for having them in our lives.

You would miss his/her tap at your back. You would miss his/her laugh and smile. And you would miss his/her company.  The sad thing is that you would realize all these when they’re gone and when they’re no longer at your side.

It would be better to send them some messages that would let them feel that you appreciate having them around. A simple message would make a lot of sense. Why not write your message now?

You may follow this sample. I found this picture on a site. This one is pretty serious…Prepare your hankies for a tear-jerking and heart-breaking message!

 

I’m sure you have an idea what your message would be. Grab that pen now and start writing!

Say Goodbye, Malubay…

April 4, 2008

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American Idol says goodbye to Ramielle Malubay after last night’s elimination.

Marami na kong nabasang posts tungkol dito. Di naman sa gaya-gaya ako pero gusto ko lang mag-express ng opinyon ko. hehe.

I knew even before I watched the replay that she’s gonna be axed. A friend told me, I read it on Yahoo and some other blog s. I was not surprised. Based on her last performance, she deserves to be in the bottom 3. hehe.

Matagal ko na ring pinapanood ang American Idol. And I would say na isa si Ramielle sa mga inaabangan kong contestants. Of course, konting suporta kasi Pinay sya.

Her performances were so-so. In other words, not that good but not that bad. That could be th reason why she often hears “boring” and “forgettable” from the judges (Cowell to be specific). Her performances were not enough to sweep the viewers off their feet. I’m no singer but I can say if someone sings well or not. She has good vocals. There’s no denying that. But she didn’t use it to its full extent. I believe that she could have done better. She was just afraid to take risks. The viewers didn’t see much improvement in her performances in the last few weeks.

May mga pagkakataong nilalamon sya ng stage nang buong-buo. Nasasapawan sya ng ibang contestants. Ang sama pa ng song choices nya. The worse was what she sang this week. Nakakalungkot isipin na di man lang nya naipakita ang pinakamaganda nyang performance na magbibigay sa kanya ng 3o-minute standing ovation (kumusta naman yon?) hehe. Pati nga siguro ibang mga pinoy sa Tate eh nagsawa na rin sa kanya.

Para sa kin, tama ang naging resulta ng bottom 3. Ang di ko lang matangaap eh ang katotohanag na-eliminate sya before Kristy Lee Cook. hehe. Ramille was not the worst performer this week. I’m not saying this just to console or pacify her fans. With the other talented contestants around, it’s quite impossible for Ramielle to win. But Kristy Lee Cook should have been axed before her, and even before Chikezie. hehe. Kristy is one hot and gorgeous mama but she sings like a chipmunk (peace, to Kristy’s fans!) Handa na akong tumanggap ng kasindak-sindak na hate messages at death threats dahil dyan.

Well, wala na tayong magagawa dun. The decision is final and irrevocable. LOL. Good luck na lang sa remaining contestants! Di pa ito ang takdang panahon para magkaron ng Fil-Am American Idol dahil di pa ko nag-audition. wahaha.
 

Boredom+Antok=Senti

April 2, 2008

Boredom is killing me this afternoon. Dumagdag pa ang bwisit na antok. Pinipilit kong labanan ang boredom at antok kaya binuksan ko ang media player ko.

Yan ang ginagawa ko pag nababato ako, ang makinig sa mga paborito kong kanta whether luma o bago. Bago ako mag-headbang sa music ng Linkin Park, Lifehouse, at Creed, I played a slow song first. I played “I’ll Be Over You” by Toto. This song is one of my all-time faves from the 80’s. At isa din ang bandang Toto sa mga naging musical influences ko. ahehe.

Di ko alam kung ano ang meron sa kantang to at nagustuhan ko ng sobra. Pag naririnig ko to eh tumatayo ang mga balahibo ko sa buong katawan. LOL. Di ko maiwasang maalala ang mga nagdaan at ang mga utang kong di ko pa nabayaran. Pag may five-peso coin nga ako sa bulsa eh hinuhulog ko agad sa videoke machine at kinakanta yan.

Perhaps, I like this song because I can relate to it. Iba kasi ang impact ng kanta pag tumatagos talaga sa buto haggang sa balun-balunan mo. Seriously, may mga pinagdaan na rin ako sa buhay ko. Yun ang mga pagkakataong kinailangan kong bumitaw at mag-move on. I had to accept that nothing lasts for a lifetime. Kaya kelangan kong bumitaw sa isang relasyon at pakawalan ang nararamdaman ko. Alam ko naman na mawawala din ang sakit sa katagalan.

Sa mga pagkakataong ganyan, kelangan mong magpakatatag at mag-move on. You need to let go and get over someone or something that is not meant for you.

I guess yan yung mensaheng gustong iparating ng kanta. Meaningful di ba? Sayang nga kasi di ko man lang mapapakinggan ang kantang to ng live.

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Toto will perform later at Waterfront Hotel Cebu at 8:00 PM.

Gusto ko sanang manood kaya lang wala na namang laman ang wallet ko. Kaya ipi-play ko na lang ng 20 beses ang kantang to hanggang sa magsawa ako. Kung gusto nyo kong sabayan, here’s the full lyrics…

I’LL BE OVER YOU – Toto

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people’s destiny
Passes by

There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
Thats how our love must be
Dont ask why

Bridge:
It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

Chorus:
As soon as my heart stops breakin
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I’ll be over you

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

Bridge:
There were the nights holding you close
Someday I’ll try to forget them
Someday I’ll be over you

Chorus